I know what you are saying and thanks for saying it, I felt retarded and didn't even know how to put it. I feel like I have an ADD mind, like it is just a bunch of commercials that I am not paying attention to. Then when interrupted or brought out of my own mind it's like I am just sitting there, this nothingness is me. I have a hard time telling different emotions apart because I can only really understand what I see or feel physically. The emotions are like Greek to me, I know anger, I know extremely happy and I know calm aka bored...nothing in between.