Lilith, I have seen a lot of strength in your posts. I think you are a wonderful person - and having said that - I could do nothing but totally relate to your post. As I read your pain, I thought, this is me!

I am completely medication free because of my strong belief that meds do not help (me that is). I am seeing some light at the end of this long tunnel, but lately days and incidents have brought me down.

I am sorry you are suffering - I just wanted you to know that I do understand, and even if I don't know you, I do care.

My thoughts are with you.