this relationship, it's confusing, aggrivating, crazy, and stressfull. i can't figure it out. all i know is that i never want to loose it. i want to keep moving forward with it and keep working on it. i feel that it is worth it. and i know that is the most patient and understanding relationship i've accepted. but why? why? why do i worry and stress and fear it? i'm giving this my all, and it's draing. i dont want to loose it. i just want to let everything else go.