Thanks for all the replies and hugs, everyone. FYI to those who wanted to know: T and I both identify as Christian. Our biggest difference is this: she believes the Bible is the inherent word of God, i.e. the Bible was inspired directly from God through man and is perfect in its intention and origin. I do not; I see it as a book that God intended to guide us how to live, a mixture of historical record and parable influenced by the social mores of the time the individual books therein were written.

It is also of note that the practice is a faith-based practice (which I sought out purposefully) but each therapist may have different beliefs. I respect T's beliefs; the problem comes in if she is trying to change how I believe.

The whole thing comes down to this: I have to talk to her about it. I want to email; H says to wait until next session. He said I can't always get everything I want rightnow and it is something that can wait.

I was slightly dissociated during the session. My H brought up the topic of perception/reality and this is a very valid point. There are four angles to take into consideration here:

1. What she said (what actually came out of her mouth).
2. What she thought she said (which may differ from what actually came out of her mouth).
3. What I heard (which may/may not have been what actually came out of her mouth).
4. What I thought I heard (which may be colored by many factors...sensitivity to the subject, fear of judgment, assuming the worst).

I want to clear up any possible miscommunication about this first and foremost. Hopefully, one or both of us misperceived the conversation. At any rate, there are several possible outcomes:

1. I'm completely misinterpreting what she said today through a veil of confusion and fear. There is no problem, we continue. (40% est. probability)
2. She misinterpreted what I said (perhaps thought I was feeling guilt related to the bisexuality itself which ties into her beliefs) and told me what she'd do from her point of view. I correct her, she understands, we continue. (40% est. probability)
3. She meant what she said; but once I tell her how it makes me feel, agrees to take a new approach, we continue as long as she sticks to this. (15% est. probability)
4. She meant what she said, she thinks I must repent to heal, we cannot get past our differences, and I find a new T. (5% est. probability)

I really don't understand it. She has known about my bisexuality since day one. She has never condemned me for it. I don't feel it's ever made her uncomfortable; she's hugged me freely, she sat inches away from me all session today (our legs touching at several points...our heads 3 feet away from each other), and has told me she loves me. Overall, my T has been competent, compassionate, loving, and empathetic. I would think y'all would have picked that up from my posts. She has been very good about meeting my needs when I have asked. She seems to have my best interests at heart. She's made a couple of mistakes, but we've repaired the ruptures and no one is perfect. H said after one whole year of no problems with the bisexuality...with it coming up from time to time, one of us probably has our wires crossed.

The only thing is, I don't know if I can wait until next Thursday to bring this up. T has never replied to an email sent on the weekend. She doesn't work Mondays and Tuesday and Wednesday I'm working out of town, so there's no possible way for me to have a session before then. Plus, I saw her schedule today, she looked almost completely booked next week.

So, email or not?