Today, in the middle of one of my classes, I started to get so hyper that I felt downright depressed. And what's worse, everything seemed like it was going in slow motion. And there was NO WAY I could just randomly get up during a lecture so.... To try to help with that, I began to swing my body around and I made noises to myself. As the day went on, it began to get even worse. And then, when I was walking home I began to get paranoid. So paranoid that I began making loud noises to try to scare off whatever I felt was watching me. Once, a touched a stop sign and then when i walked away from it I began to get a weird feeling all over my body and my fingers felt strange. So, I started wiping them off and shaking my hand, telling it to "get away."

When I got home, the moment I stepped into the door I started to hear a buzzing/growling hybrid noise. And something that went, "Squeee!" But I couldn't find what was making it. Needless to say, I got more paranoid than I already was. So I began talking to myself and talking myself through the process of making food. When my sister began to yell at me, I freaked out more and then I went to my room, afraid to come out of it. Whenever I laid down I started giggling and my whole body felt a buzzing sensation. I made loud noises for the next two hours so I could keep everything away from me.

Then I decided to close my eyes, but opened them immediately after having an EXTREMELY VIVID picture of a finger, jamming itself into someone's skin and popping it. Blood was gushing everywhere and the skin was ripped and turning purple. I freaked out more and I began to start thinking about suicide. It wasn't until I listened to music that I calmed down. And I just woke up after falling asleep. I feel much better now, though my body still feels like it's buzzing.

What just happened?! I've had similar experiences before but that was a year ago. Back then, I broke out laughing and crying and couldn't bring myself to stop for the longest time. And then it was just.... done...