Sabrina for years I felt as if I deserved the abuse handed to me... i felt like I made him do it to me.. like i asked for it...... of course it was all because he told me it was my fault, that i asked for it by just walking through the room, or by wear the clothes i was wearing..... or the worst one of all, because i looked just like my mom....... I grew up thinking that it was in fact my fault...

abuse is never your fault... No one ever asks for i, no one ever deserves it...
I understand completely how you feel... i am here for you ok????