First, I did not ask for you or anyone else to have compassion for me. Yes, I had chosen suicide. I am not proud of that, I am very angry with myself for making that choice. As for "people in this world going through so much more and yet they still keep fighting" - you have not been in my life, so you don't know what I have been through.

As for being selfish, yeah, I suppose suicide is a selfish way out, but when you get to that point, that's not what you think of.

You say you have been suicidal before, but being suicidal, and actually being at the point of attempting suicide are not the same. I have been to both places, and it's not good.

Before you judge others about being so selfish and self-serving, try walking in my shoes for a few days.