I just don't see a suicidal attempt being something someone really wants to do...when you want to die you do it, unless you blow off half your face and pass out from blood loss. That may be the case with you, I really don't know. To me, maybe just me, I find it selfish. And trust me I've walked my fair share of miles too so we don't need to compare notes here. I can completely understand being so low and that it is a spur of the moment thing, someone dear to me came in from the garage after work, poured her little bottle of meds all into her mouth and went for a nice extended nap...selfish, I still love her but selfish, selfish, selfish.