Hi Chopin,
I've been away from this forum for a few days and I am only now catching up on posts. I thought it was interesting in your original post that you were finding flaws with the way your t looks. Could it be that you are starting to feel flaws in her as your t? I know you've been on a long journey with her, but it now sounds like you are questioning her guidance.
I believe you must have searched for a Christian counselor when you first met with her judging from the amount of Christian references that your sessions include. If you are not longer in need of this type of counseling, then perhaps you need to seek out other options.
I am not going to go into my beliefs here, but I, too, am a Christian, but I don't practice in the same way as your t. I don't know what my t believes, nor do I want her advice from this perspective. I have a minister for that, if needed. Personally I don't want to be judged by whom I choose to love or seek comfort from.
Chopin, I know you have great respect and love for you t. I hope that your email helps to get the both of you in the right place concerning your therapy. You should feel good after a session, not crying!
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