I think you're so tired of fighting against being sucked into the undertow that you figure you'll just surrender and throw yourself in.
fires1, you know how they build house on the beach fronts? And you know how these storms and hurricanes come along and obliviate those houses and then they just rebuild the houses again just so that they're taken out by another storm? It fills me with wonder when I see people rebuilding properties on these shore lines when the houses just keep getting wiped out.
And I've asked myself why? Why do they do that? Why do they keep rebuilding their homes on the shore front where they know there's a chance of it getting wiped out again?
And then I realized it's because in the peaceful and calm times, the view and beauty of the shore line is worth it to them.
Your post reminded me of this.
Please, keep rebuilding.
Hugs!!!