Sometimes our families can be what's harming us most ... Sometimes intentional ... Sometimes not ... Harmful nonetheless though ...

Have you considered disability or a shelter until you can get back on your own two without the family having to bail you out then reinjure you by holding it over your head?

I eventually had to simply cut all ties, move away and never look back ... Scary as all get out! ... But eventually led to a happier physical and emotional me ...

Good luck and best wishes ... Difficult decisions lay ahead ... The main thing is to not let anyone (family included) win by causing you to destroy your very being ...

Sincerely,
BrokenCloud