I have a difficult social life, I'm shy, I have no friends, and the only people I know are my parents. I have no doubts I am the most loneliest person on this Earth. I'm almost 23 and have never been in a relationship with a girl, and I'm terribly sad when I see other people so happy. I need somebody.

A year ago I had quit my job for way too many reasons to explain, throwing freight at a grocery store for 2 years tired me physically and mentally. I have been sitting at home with my parents ever since, paying what rent that I can, thinking about my future. I know deep in my heart that I have huge college potential with computers, but I have no idea where my skills would come in handy most. There are just so many areas of study and college requirements often overwhelm me. Everybody in High School seemed to know exactly who they wanted to become when they grew up, why not me? Every day that passes is a moment that I could be helping myself. I will need another job before college, but I first need a goal.

I want to see a doctor because I have OCD problems, but I have no idea which doctor I should seek. Not only that, I have no idea where to find the cost, or what insurance will help. I have a terrible understanding of insurance, it all seems so complicated and complex; so many numbers and figures. How do adults make it in a difficult world like this? It shouldn't be so damn hard. I randomly looked around at the unofficial cost of a mental health counselor, and found it is 80$ for an hour session per visit, which is completely and utterly ridiculous. I could go to a doctor all day long, but not even they will help me financially.

I have went to God for many of my problems, asking him to give me direction and guidance, but he never seems to answer because I never have any reason to leave the house. My parents tell me all the time, "God helps those who helps themselves", but I have difficulty swallowing this. They just don't understand, I have a unique situation on my hands. How can I help myself when I don't know how to help myself?

I am so disappointed with my life, I feel there is no one around to help me. I could scream all day long, and not even God himself will hear my plea.