Thank you so much for your advice everyone. It was so great to finally have people be understanding about this.

Because everyone said I should seek counseling, I've started going to a therapist recently. It's sometimes overwhelming to talk about it and they said I have PTSD but I think there's progress.

My therapist says I should let people I'm close to know how I'm feeling, but as for having my mom understand, I still don't know how to go about it. Sometimes she says that it's normal to feel this way; other times she doesn't even answer and gives me a cold shoulder. I also told my girlfriend just a vague idea of my abuse this weekend but something wasn't right with the way she acted afterwards. I offered to walk her home but she completely refused. This was in the middle of our dinner too. I think maybe my mom and girlfriend want time to adjust to this?? It might be kind of weird for them because I don't normally talk about what's bothering me.