I am sitting in my room, while my son is outside the door, screaming, pounding on the door, and, in general, being out of control.

This is not the first time, in fact, it has gotten better because I have learned to go away and not freak out in response. If I do not get away he will grab at me, pull my hair and try to block me from getting away from him. I have called the police a couple of times, and he usually calms down, then freaks out again once they are gone.

I know exactly what triggered him. He messed his pants (he will be 17 in a few days, so he is a little old for this) and I took his computer away. Now the rule is if he messes his pants, because he will not get up from what he was doing, he loses whatever it was that he did not want to leave.

He knew this was the consequence when I realized what he did, and he freaked out, and his brother needed to keep him away from me while I grabbed the laptop. This is insane! Why do I deal with being attacked by my own son? Because I love him?

Thing is, now her I am in my room, locked away from him, and it is not right. He is actually calming down, but I know as soon as I open my door it will start all over again.

Not only that, he will go through everything in my room looking for the computer once I leave the house. Yes, I can lock my door, but sometimes I forget.

I know what his doc says, I know what the behaiourist says, and I am doing it. I just want a life of my own. I keep thinking I probably need to put him in a residential center, but I know, once this is over, I am going to say, oh, everything is ok, he will get better... he is 17! Who am I fooling?

Have any of you ever been through this?