I don't want to see T again...I'm so over this life...I wish there were an easy way to leave-I think I will wait til I graduate-but then I will escape...I'm thinking of going out to the ocean at night-swimming as far as I can-and weigh myself down...I wonder how long people will keep thinking im ok...I'm a great actress sometimes...ohh maybe I'm just another drama queen...bpd at its finest...all talk..well maybe not one day