Delicatefade, I've tried what you're talking about. It doesn't work. I was underwater, fading fast and my will to live came through and I fought my way to the surface with a fight and determination I never thought existed inside of me. Look, I truly understand the desire to "just give up" ... "that no one understands" . .. "why keep struggling". But you know what? It truly gets better (I'm not saying shooting stars wonderful but better) You just need to stick with your therapist and keep working.

I wish I could say that our therapists can be the end all to be all. .. they that always know how to support and love us through every crisis. .. .they can't.. .. they are human. But if you have one that is willing to stay still and calm in the midst of our storm, then they are worth going back to! Yep, he wasn't the perfect parent when he just responded "Ok" . .. he made a mistake. But that doesnt' mean he doesn't care or isn't invested in you. Give him a chance. Go back and tell him how much it hurt to hear the "Ok."

When we are this hurt we whirl backward into childhood when a parent should have been more caring and comforting. Sometimes our therapists forget that, they get it wrong . .. or perhaps they realize that they can't be the parent that wasn't there. What ever the case, go back and try again. I promise you it will be worth the pain and effort!