I know what you mean by ED being like bipolar disorder. Ana for me is when I am not doing well and am really depressed, when life is "going out of control". I have been dx with bipolar amongst other things. Do you have someone you can talk to about all this? I see a therapist who specializes in EDs, she has been an essential part of my treatment team. I hope one day, I can say that Ana doesn't have a hold of my life, but that isn't right now. I hope the same for you.