I am starting to keep things to myself. Stufff that could arise jelousy from my friend. I have experienced coolness sometimes when I was excited about a new opportunity that has opened up for me and they responded poorly. I am beginning to sit with myself for a bit first. I am getting to make a friend in myself and I give her a name. She is my trusted friend. I can tell her my stuff and be safe. When I tell my best friend and my mom about something really great, they give me a poor reaction and now I have just begun to learn not to share great wonderful exciting events too quickly unless I feel it providence. I have bi-polor and I must protect myself from ego deflation. I love my cool ideas and even made some succeed but the people around me weren't supportive. I am doing better when I journal the ideas. Also I do have one friend that lets me share and cares back but not many like that are out there, even husbands and closest friends really can't be depended on and that is the truth. I am getting stronger because the friend of myself.