Most people do not understand depression. I have a friend that doesn't get it either, and it gets frustrating sometimes having to explain what it's like. Most people think you can just "get over it", but those of us who know - well, we know it's not like that.

I imagine that being as young as you are, you are feeding on this in different ways - both good and bad. However, since you've been so down for so long, I would suggest you talk to your doctor about treatment and therapy. Eight to nine months is a long time to be feeling so low. I really think it's time you reached out and got the help you need. I think that by doing this that you will feel the confidence to do what you want, and achieve your dreams.

Take care of yourself!