I was always running. There was an alter that acted out. As an adult I have never lived in one place as long as I have here, 7 years.I don't want to have all that start aagian, the lost time, strangers at my door, they know me I haven't a clue who they are. (I just stay home and make no friends but its wearing on me. It's no longer feeling safe to just hide. ) So I leave, I leave leave eveything behind and start over with nothing.
I want to try and go back to work but between the memory gaps, I have nothing tangable to look at to tell me where I have worked and when. I think I know, but dates are not linear for me.I'm trying to work with a state agency but I don't want to tell them about the DID either and they don't understand how I can not know when I worked where. I can't even remember when I lived where.