this is how I've felt over the past 4-5 years, since my last (3rd) divorce. But I find myself facing the love and understanding from a wonderful man that swears he's not leaving me behind... Ever! He and I have off and on for over 10 yrs and have a 7 yr old son together. He KNOWS me and this terrible infliction I (we) have to deal with. Some days I doubt him and convince myself he's 'up to something'. But within minutes or hours he finds a way to show me once again how serious he is about making this work. It IS possible for all of us! Don't lose faith. You are a beautiful person and have a lot to offer. ((HUGS))