I've gone the med route (Lexapro for me too) and it was helpful, but I felt strange while taking it. I tend to have odd reactions to medication, so it's not my first choice. At the time, I needed something to blunt my reactions enough that I could stop panicking long enough to learn other coping skills.

I chose to go off of meds after about 4 months...when I had some life changes and my anxiety dropped to a manageable level.

Now, I'm seeing a new therapist, and working again on my anxiety and depression. She understands that I wish to avoid meds if possible, but has told me that if she thinks it's necessary, she will push it. So far, she has not pushed it. My therapist has told me that I've chosen the harder route, by not going on meds, but she also understands that it's important to me. I have learned some great coping skills and am able to manage my anxiety much better than I used to be able to. Is it hard...yes. Would it be easier with meds...probably. But, I'm comfortable with how things are going right now.

So, my suggestion is - if meds make you uncomfortable, then it's okay to try to go without, but you really need professional support to do so. If you're going to stop the meds, at the very least, find a therapist that can help you learn other coping skills, and that will support you in your desire to not take medication.