Per the snoopdog, T's are impervious, like lead, or a raincoat lined with Gore-tex! so fuggeddabbout it! actually, I really liked what she said in response as to why you had these particular feelings - and the way you came back here and explained it I think was helpful for many people. I know it was for me, thanks. yes, we DO keep revisiting the same feelings; my first long-term T said it's like an onion, you just keep peeling back layers. I think though it's more like a head of lettuce growing in the garden - you keep picking off the outer layers and inner ones keep growing - until the plant bolts, gets tough, and goes to seed?