@blossom12 - yeah i realize that labeling it isn't the main issue, but the fact that i didn't know how to explain how i'm feeling was freaking me out even more. i've been going to the gym and working out everyday and other things in hoping that it will level me out and it didn't seem to do much..

@sparklehorse - i haven't contacted my dr. yet, i've been meaning to give her a call but i keep putting it off or forgetting (stupid thing to forget i know..) i've also recently got cut of from my previous insurance coverage (through my mom's work, but she got laid off) and now i'm in the process of getting my own individual coverage. thankfully my dr's been nice enough to still give me my meds and check up on me. as far as a therapist, i talked to a therapist we have at schoool (college) and got some good feedback. i honestly can't pin point a trigger, i've been trying to figure it out; but i think i just felt/feel overwhelmed with everything which always seems to be happening at once. i guess it's because i keep getting mad at myself for being sad and i need to just let myself be sad...

@cocoabeans - i keep telling myself that it'll pass and i know it will. it just sucks not being able to control it

@moremi - my swings were also sad lows to happy/fly highs too- i know any sort of mania isn't good, but i would rather be manic (euphoric) any day..