Thanks, dear people, for your replies.
I saw my pdoc., and he did not give me much hope about mom and possible future Alzheimers in the next phase of the sucessionn of dementia. . .
I confided in him, that I no longer know where I am going with this. I must admit, I'm not suicidal or anything like that,no alarm,. . . nada.
I'm just worn,torn, and super depressed, can't sleep well,etc., so he gave me Sonata script and re-newal for Ativan, if needed besides my "normal" monthly meds.
It's all unfair, I'm almost off of all meds, or near that, then mom "F"'s up my life and my familie's, butyet, me, the moron, feels this moral obligation, to keep caring for her.
Bottom line, my life is drained, and how long can I keep going on? . . . the martyr??
Ah, gang, I'm just venting, no reply to this expected.
Thanks,
Roe