Wow , you have just described what I feel right now ! I am also in therapy for abuse . I also feel anger . I also feel as if something is wrong with me to have a handfull of people abuse me in such a dehumanising way. My T wants me to write about it too. I dont have any advice for you , I just wanted you to know you are not alone . I am in a simalair place right now . Thank you for sharing your struggles with us . God give us strength to endure the process of healing.