My head is reeling, ants are crawling all over me. Things are, then they vanish without a trace.
My middle daughter was rude to her mother this morning, and I got angry with her & read her the riot act. She dissolved in tears and was close to an asthma attack she was so upset. My wife left for 3 days business across the country. I am left playing mom and dad for 3 days. I have my toughest job of the year coming up in 2 days time. The bank froze my business account - some government red tape that needed fixing before I could pay more government red tape taxes. My wife's cell phone got cut off - her business partner forgot to pay the bill.
I hit such a low today - I was begging God to just kill me and let me turn to dust and blow away in the wind. I am so overwhelmed.

I thought of going to the ER to keep from killing myself - then thought I'd stand a better chance of survival fighting it on my own, than being further demolished by hospital red tape. (red tape is my nemesis - it is a multi-stranded rope designed to hang people like me).

I will visit my sister this afternoon for help with the kids - she needn't know what I am going through right now - just getting someone else's perspective might help keep me from pressing the self destruct button.