I'm not sure that mine is similar, but here's my sitch:

I'm 22 years old and never had a relationship, period. I probably never will. I am disgusted with myself I suppose, well, I hate everything. I never speak irl unless someone asks me to specifically. I have never seen anyone happily married with kids in my life. I wouldn't call being married or having had children a success by any stretch of my imagination. I think marriage is just a tradition with a lost meaning. You might think I'm a freak, which I probably am, but I think that having kids is the same if not worse than murder.