Hi, like your user name, if mine was like that it'd be 22andlost. I can't say I have anything like your physical problems, and I'm sorry. I do feel very alone, depressed, and hopeless though. I have been a single guy for all my life. I feel like I don't have anything to offer to anyone in all aspects of social activity. With my depression, no one would ever want to be around me, but I have sort of accepted it. At least you were able to kiss a girl I suppose. That is better than me, I have never done anything more than talk to one. And I'm sure that whatever I say is the total wrong thing and anyone that hears it will steer clear of me.