I was in a good mood yesterday because I treated myself to a massage! Later though, a close friend told me she's taking a trip with her H (they travel a lot) and I got SO angry and jealous. It's a pattern for me to get upset when people travel, I've noticed.

I filled out my T's tracking log and where I was supposed to draw a picture of how I feel, I took red marker and wrote all over the paper, including the back! I really made a mess out of it! I know part of my problem is that I want and don't want to go on the trip my H and I were supposedly planning. I'm scared to plan a trip and to fly, plus other things are coming up and I don't know that I want to go away now.

I am so jealous and angry, though. It's a part of me that's obviously very immature. I'm sure my T will want to be curious about that part, as usual. I've scribbled on papers other times when I'm angry. I suppose I should be glad I am not more destructive. I still feel angry and jealous, though.

I don't know why I'm posting this. How do you get over anger and jealousy?