I don't know if this rates a warning or not but I would rather err on the side of caution.

Is it so bad of me to deny I had DID in the past? I'm intergrated now. I haven't ever told the T I have now about it, she's kinda wondered how I could get though some things I have been though(even there she doesn't know much about my childhood ---I feel like thats been dealt with and shut) and only have dissociation, but I just don't want to even talk about it, or even think about those years. I just responded to a post about getting arrested. I never did, but I got picked up more times than I can count. It has me remembering things and wondering if I'm doing the right thing shuting the door on that and refusing to acknowledge that DID was ever my diagnoses--is it a past thing or does it stay with you?

When I "woke " up in those hospitals I learned to quickly quiz the people in the hospital to find out where I was, what day it was and all that and lie my way out quickly. My doctor too if she was called would say I had had a dissocitive episode and there was no reason to keep me if it was me responding. Some alters figured out how to use that too. So it wasn't always me that left the hospital.

What does my T work on? The stuff that made my PSTD into C -PTSD the psych hospitals that abused me and my husband. She knows I was sexualy abused as a child, I just say thats been dealt with.

Does it come up? I don't split, but sometimes the memories of dealing with it, and the trouble I got into, the alter who did things I don't aprove of.. those things do come up, I just do my best to lock it out. I m really afraid that if I admit ti it that whole can of worms might get opened up again. I'm afraid to get close to people because of it. Once you have that diagnose is it for life? I live in a different state now. 2 times removed. I've started over more times than I care to, I don't want to have to move again.