Hi Jahada,
I am sorry that you are going through this. Please do not blame yourself in this, the therapist probably needs to break away from all his/her clients for personal reasons that need to be tended to. It is hard work to be a therapist and have so many that depend on you, so you must try to be kind and understand that. A therapist has to recognize if they are somehow getting worn out and may not be helping their patients as much as the patients deserve to be helped.

The therapy you have had has taught you some things, as you mentioned, how to discuss your past and find the courage to talk about it. And it has also taught you that someone CAN listen and be understanding and helpful. While you have not "yet" found another therapist, be patient and keep trying. It took me a while myself to find a therapist that specialized in treating my C-Pstd. Have you been able to ask this therapist you have had for a referral or some ideas in finding another therapist?

Also, there have been more studies done on C-ptsd and more treatments designed for it, not all therapists keep up with the new research being done so it can be beneifical to find a new therapist that is current on the new therapies and research, so keep looking and searching the net for therapists in your area. And if you call a therapist and the message is that the therapist is not taking new patients always ask if they know other therapists that can treat you.

For now, please know that you can come to PC for support and use it to help you through the hump while your searching for a new therapist. I did that for a while myself and it really helped me.

((((((Hugs)))))))
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