This thread is triggering to me so I know it's important. I'm not doing too well today.
I'm also thinking of the other tracking log about when I get to that place of dread, pain, fear--what I started my other thread about. I colored that all in black.
Perna: I've always been jealous when others do what I want, or think I want to be doing. There are many situations like that throughout my life. I'm sure my T will want me to go back to the earliest I can remember for EMDR.
WePow: I think you and Perna are right. Thank you.
sunrise: thanks for all your good suggestions. Yes, we'll probably do EMDR about it. My T does specialize in anxiety treatment; that's why we do breathing and meditation, and why she wants me to take yoga and practice mindfulness.
I think it is about the fact that others do easily what I find extremely difficult to do. Anxiety plays a part in it, plus my negative thoughts and obsession with bad things happening when I travel. I did plan some successful trips but I don't know if it's worth it. Everything is so hard for me!! I wish I could just curl up in a ball and stay there, but then there's the part of me who wants excitement and adventure! I can't reconcile the two parts.
sannah: thank you!
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:Is it only when other people travel that you feel angry or jealous? Whether yes or no, could it be symbolic of the belief that they're happy and you're not? So, maybe you're jealous of what you think other people possess in the realm of happiness?
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Yes, I think you hit the nail on the head! Yes, I always think others are happier than I am. It's not only when they travel. It could be anything. I may feel good about something I do until I hear what someone else does and I get jealous, especially if it's someone I know. I hate being like this. I'm depressed about it right now.
I liked the story you posted. I'm the kind who would stick with the person who didn't want me, or else run away and sulk by myself.