Thank you, WePow. I don't know if have energy to buy paints. We have blank canvasses in my house, though. I could ask my T if I could do it in the session instead of EMDR. I don't know what is best. I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe I need antidepressants after all, but this just came up since I heard about this trip. I feel more depressed than angry right now. It keeps changing. I think I want to express these feelings with my T there next to me.