This is not good. She has to cancel our appointment tomorrow because her daughter is sick. They are going out of town on Wednesday, so I will have to wait until next week to talk with her again. She did tell me to call if I need to. She also told me to email when I need to.

I really don't want to do that. Part of me is glad that she is cancelling because I don't want to go back and talk about the erotic transference thing. But part of me knows that I need to. I don't want to do that in an email or over the phone. That needs to be done face to face.

This is the second time we have had to cancel a session. The last time, I fell off a cliff and missed two days work. I guess this time, since I am on spring break, it won't matter if I stay in bed for two days. Hopefully, I won't go to that. I need to start being able to handle things better. Maybe if we weren't right in the middle of some very hard stuff, it may be different. I am almost afraid to tell my husband. He will be upset because he knows how I get when I miss a session.