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Originally Posted by rainbow8
elliemay: That's easy to say but not so easy to feel when I just want to cry. I also feel like filling pages and pages with red and black crayon or marker. I want to lash out at someone, but I don't know who.
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I have a strong suspicion that there is so much more going on here than a friend taking a trip
This certainly sounds like fury, the kind of fury that come from feeling cheated/deprived.
I'm sure you have a lot to be grateful and happy about in your life, but, fury/rage can trump those feelings at will.
I hope you can get to the bottom of these feelings and come to see them for what I think they actually are - old stuff bubbling out in a big way.
Of course, sometimes we just get mad. We certainly get to do that without having to understand it. Mad and grumbly is okay.
I would try not to set up shop in mad and grumbly though. It closes the door to a lot of really good stuff.