(((((beauflow)))))

You sure have been having a rough time. I had no idea. I wonder if you can step outside of your head for a little bit and see if there is something going on, or not going on, in your life that is stressing you big-time.

Of course your mind is in your brain and the brain is in the head. So I'm not really trying to say you are too much in your head. Well, else can you be - when you get right down to it. I'm struggling to find words. Is something outside of you going on that is affecting you in a hurtful way? Did something happen years ago that was hurtful and that left a wound that never healed? I don't mean you should necessarily tell us on this thread. I mean for you to ask yourself, and answer to you, yourself.

I just happen to remember you, from past exchanges, as a person with a darn good mind and a pretty decent sense of balance about things. I think the word I'm getting at is - well, I remember some very "mature" ideas that you verbalized to me in the past. Now, more than what I remember in the past, you sound like you are under some horrendous stress. So I am thinking something changed in your life. Or that something that you kind of had a grip on slipped out of your grip. ???

Mainly, you are too nice to feel this darn bad. But it happens. I wish I could do something more than type words here. However, that is what we do here at PC, and it can do a lot of good sometimes. I get the feeling that, somewhere along the line, you have been treated in a way that was not too good. Maybe, a wild guess on my part. I am hoping for improvement in how you feel.

Rose