T has reassured me many times over the last three months that it is okay for me to call him, if I felt like I need to in between sessions. The first time I ever called (before I really knew it was okay) he never called me back. He explained the next session that I should tell the receptionist that it was urgent and that would ensure he would get back to me that day. Three weeks ago I called as I was having major panic attacks everyday. I told the receptionist that it was urgent.. he didnt' call me back. I had to call him the next day.

Yesterday, I called him at 10am.. told the receptionist that I needed to talk to him today. She said okay. He never called back. I suppose it is possible that he still could call me back. However, this is just somewhat of an emerging trend with him. I call him, b/c at the time I feel like I need to talk to him and it makes me feel worse when he doesn't call back. So, just a little vent this morning. I think it is a good thing, I don't have his e-mail address b/c I probably would have e-mailed him at the height of my annoyonce last night and let it all out. It is hard to reach out for help, especially in between sessions and when I don't get what I need it makes me feel like I am too much to handle or too needy.