(((((((((Sundance))))))))))))))
You are extremely brave. It took a lot of courage to just post your story to me. I can agree with your therapist in that allowing people you trust to help you through your body memories is great. If you can trust your boyfriend to touch your neck in order to help you get through this then that is great. It probably will take a long time but I am sure that you can overcome memories like that.
If it helps I know what you mean. I never let men touch my face with their hands for a very long time. It took being with a man that I trusted a great deal before I could get over that fear.
God sweetie no wonder you hate your room so much...that is completely understandable considering how much has happened to you there.

Stay strong sweetie,
Jessica

You are in this snowglobe. It is encovered in glass and secure. But one day someone comes and shakes the globe and the pieces go flying everywhere. Now they will eventually settle but they won't be the way they were before and they can never be that way again.