I'm sorry, nightsky. I've missed you but was hoping you were doing okay and just taking a break.

This is just my opinion, but I think your relationship with your T is too deep and special to be severed. Whatever happened will be worked out. Even though we can't know what goes in your sessions because we aren't there, your descriptions have been so vivid that I KNOW without a doubt that your T believes in you and that your connection with him is very real.

I trust that he will get you to see that.