I say both, have... and am. However I only say either because I am trying to convey what is going on at a given time. Neither are how I actually feel. I don't actually feel like I have bipolar, or I am bipolar. I am a whole lot more than bipolar and most of my "problems" are more complicated than bipolar, it isn't the only factor. Ok I don't know if that's making a lot of sense, but even when I am having a mood problem there is usually more than meets the eye than just the bipolar. So in my head when I think of myself I seldom see bipolar, I just see me. I am what I have always known, before the dx and after. Maybe it doesn't help that I constantly question Bipolar, am I ? Is it just a shared collection of "symptoms" that a group of people share for whatever reasons? I am not completely sold on the chemical science behind this, maybe because no meds have ever helped me that much. I don't know, but I know that I don't feel like "It". I identify myself as me, even if I had cancer, I don't think I would identify myself as a cancer patient, not in the mind.

Am I crazy for thinking that others feel the same as me? I don't think so. So I really don't care if you say I am or have. If I say either one, does that really give you any insight to how I feel or identify? Absolutely freakin' not. That would be very misleading. Also why does it really matter how you identify with it. Is there a right or wrong?