i have no one other then my dad that i found last thursday but i dont want to tell him all of whats going on i havent talked to him in like 15 years..... and about the list i have a problem doing that to i have no energy to do anything i stay on this page all day thats all i do.... :/ i refuse to cut..... i really want to see someone to help with my problems, but when i try to talk to my boyfriend about it hes like why dont you talk to me.... why do you wanna talk to a stranger, just talk to me..... i try to explain to him that he is not qualified to help with all that i have going on.... he doesnt understand that i need one who is can help...... idk what to do............. how do i explain to him how do i get him to understand that i need professional help.....