I showed my T the log that I messed up with red marker and we agreed to do EMDR about it. Then she hit me with her bombshell!

She's going away for 2 weeks at the end of April--to another country again. This wouldn't be so bad except that we are visiting my daughter early in April and I'm not sure yet if I will be back before my T goes away.

So, we did the EMDR about that, and it ended up to be about my mother's illness and death.
I was close to tears but my feeling was more like I was in quicksand or the black that I colored on the other log. My T says I need to do more grieving about my mother. She suggested a collage. She forgot we did that already.
I don't want my T to leave!!! She said we have 4 more weeks but we don't, depending on when we go to visit my daughter. This is not the trip for my anniversary to the Rockies; this is my family so it's wonderful, but not a vacation.
I kept telling her I don't want her to go! She said I can cope and we have more time to talk about it. But I am panicking at her leaving me, and it could be a whole month with both of us going at different times.
I went to the lake after my session but I just cried and cried there.
I can't stand people leaving me. I know it's about my mother but she didn't leave until she got sick.
I don't feel good. Could I please have some hugs?
One good thing was that my T thought my getting a massage was great. So do I!