Oh KarleyPerez, I know it is hard to get others to understand, I hear you, oh, I had the hardest time and now the only one that somewhat gets it is my husband, but it took a long time for him to understand he just couldn't fix me. People just don't understand it, and to be honest, I can't blame them. Had I not experienced this for myself, I would have trouble understanding it too. And even though I have it, it is still hard to understand.

You have to go easy on yourself, try to stay calm as much as you can, and I know it isn't easy. But you found us and guess what, we can talk and sympathize because we DO know how difficult it is.

I am really sorry about the court thing, how awful. I know this is hard but right now, the most important thing is to take care of you, even if you are angry and disappointed. amaviena is right, one day at a time, and sometimes, it is one moment at a time, do not pressure yourself and stress. My therapist told me to try to think of everything as the tide at the beach, coming in and out and do my best not to fight it but simply observe it. I do try that and it does help.

Your going to have to be firm with your boyfriend, thank him for wanting to help and that you do appreciate him wanting to listen and you think he is wonderful. Just keep telling him that even though he is so kindly offering, you know that you DO need a therapist that understands how to treat what you have.

If the mental hospital did help you before you can always go there if you really think you need help. Have you called them and asked if they have any referals for outpatient service? In the meantime, we are here for you. I know dear, it can be a struggle, but you not alone, you have us here to support you. There are some wonderful supportive members here at PC. They may not all be on right now so give it time. You can also post in the PTSD forum.

((((Gentle supportive hugs))))
Open Eyes