(((((((((( LydiaB )))))))))))
I'm really sorry that you have been through all of that. I certainly can understand why you feel angry towards this other client and towards your team as well.
I do think that Perna is right though, I think it would do you well to look for other theraputic supports. I take issue with T's and Pdocs etc. that don't LISTEN to their clients. One size does NOT fit all!!
There may come a time in the future when you will be able to let go of your anger for this situation. I hope you can come to that place as it will truly give you some peace when you get there.
As for facing and feeling your anger and being new at it.....I get that. It can be scary to go there and there may be some missteps along the way while you are learning about it and how to deal with it. That's okay! The fact that you are willing to go there, touch it, feel it, express it and then deal with it is awesome. But, like any child first learning to walk, they will have some bumps along the way....just like we adults do when learning about ourselves as well.
I wish you well Lydia.....please take good care!

sabby