Being on the computer too long has given me enough physical soreness (neck and upper back) that it trumps all my psychic angst. Today they shut off my phones, internet, and TV service. Non-payment. Just so depressed, that, 2 months ago, I stopped even going through the mail. Well - got a wake-up call. Everything is back on now. I just paid 'em off using April's rent. But it will work out. I need to do the paperwork to get on subsidized housing. It feels like trudging through thick mud waste-deep. I just abandoned being responsible for stuff, and who do I think I am. I do nothing. Once upon a time I was a person who wouldn't recognize this person that I now am.

I'll get over it. Hung up my bird-feeders today. That was something