Of course it's not love. But it's one of the next best things: human contact. I agree with the person in Kentucky that you are not an awful person. But I do not agree that a one-night-stand is a bad choice. I began having one-nighters when I was 13 years old. It was a good choice. It was a good choice because, in my situation, I needed human contact so badly that if I didn't get it I would have...well, I would not be here today. I hope no one gets a triggering message from that. But really, I have to defend my good choice. Sleeping with strangers or with guys from school who wanted sex but wouldn't be seen with me in public SAVED my life. Some people can't function without human contact. This is upsetting me now because I haven't had much human contact lately. What I wouldn't give to be rocking the back seat of an old car with anyone. I can't "afford" one-night stands anymore because I am "functional". Sometimes I hate that, and long for the days of running naked in the rain screaming. I'm "functional." Every kid in the bars of this town is my student. Now I feel really rotten and I hate being "functional"--which is why I haven't had much human contact lately. F this.