So mad at myself!

I worried and worried until nine am, when my appointment was at 1130.
having had no sleep i tried to lay down for an hour and slept right through my damned appointment

Im sure it was partially me trying to get out of the appointment but I WAS going to go and now im just cranky at myself.

anyways I called and rescheduled. So all is not lost.
But still.

Why do I do these things?