Wehope you willlcome to PC, I'm glad you are here! I don't know that I have any answers for you, but I would encourage you to look into the possibility of your having depression and trying to get some treatment. That may mean therapy, meds, or maybe both.

I can connect with your desire to do something good. I am a teacher at a school with pretty disadvantaged kids, and I volunteer with teens also. I'm glad you are doing these great things, but am sad for you that it does not fulfill you. I am happy to talk more if you want to PM me sometime.

I hope you are able to find some answers on here and come to some peace. Take care and be kind to yourself, you deserve it!

dailyhealing