Farmergirl:

I know cancer attacks personality as well. Of course it does when you are confrontede with your own mortality, I am absolutely aware of that. Do you have bipolar yourself`? Because what I meant was that when you're manic it's an out-pf-body experience, you can't control yourself and do all kinds of weird things you would NEVER do if you where normal. That's alienating to your own self-concept.

So I know, and I think people with cancer very often suffer traumatic depressions, but so do we. I only said that it attacks personality in a DIFFERENT way, so as to say people with cancer don't usually suddenly get manic. I know cancer is serious and of course it affects your whole world view. I would not try to jugde which is worst, they're both AWFUL, but let me say that bipolars are very much confronted with their mortality as well.

I've had suicidal thoughts for about 2 years of my life EVERY day in that time and YES, that attacks personality as well. So I don't think you can judge which of them is worst, it's just hoping they both will soon be out of the world.